kyle hemingway

…ella ella ay ay ay…

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i love our kitty.

somebody brought his cranky face today.

i stayed up a little late tonight to get my magazine design homework finished before class tomorrow, but then found i wasn’t able to sleep. excited about tomorrow, i pulled up the new york times, slate, and some other news sites to do a little reading before i went to sleep. reading usually puts me to sleep.

i find myself, however, exactly the opposite. i’m sitting in my office at 1:37 am scared out of my mind that the world is going to end tomorrow. i don’t like having an anxiety problem. or the uncertainty of how tomorrow will turn out. or the fact that despite the fact that i will be voting, that’s the only thing i can do to ensure things turn out the way i’d like them to.

i’ve been scared all this past week that members of my family have signed petitions for yes on proposition 8 just because one might have been circulated in their church, whether or not they actually know how harmful that is. or how hurtful.

i don’t like feeling that i am out of control of a situation, that feeling causes me a lot of anxiety, and i’m really anxious right now when i think about everything that’s happening tomorrow.

i can’t even laugh at tina fey doing sarah palin right now, which should be indicative of just how scared i am.

let’s cross all of our fingers collectively tomorrow and hope everything turns out for the best, and that the world is still turning on wednesday morning.

ironic?